I have to apologize for the last post. In no way was it meant to seem like a lame attempt for encouragement or compliments (not that I want to sound ungrateful for the ones I received at all, I love you all too!), I broke in a moment of frustration and needed an outlet instead of hoping that the wall would respond.
I am grateful for everyone in my life, it's just reality that sometimes everyone doesn't see things from my perspective..... wow, what a thought! I need to be better about facing rejection graciously when it is for the betterment of a group, friends I do care about a lot.
Although, sometimes it scares me that my immediate thoughts are "forget them!" "I don't need them" "I can go about my life without them, on my own" "Obviously, they don't need me, or think they don't" "Wait til they realize what I do for them after I won't do it anymore!"
I know these are crazy and irrational thoughts. Clearly, if you know me, you know those ideas last about five minutes... or until that next meeting or phone call. "Manda, can you...... ?"
I just don't want to be turning into someone who is guarded about getting involved in people's lives, supporting things I love, and pouring my passion into something or someone for fear of rejection. This is an issue I had never thought about until these last few years but I know it all comes around to this fact: Yes, people do let you down, but if you know you are serving and showing Christ in everything you do, your trust in God and His plan will carry you through and should be your source of fulfillment and happiness. So don't stop!
Well, that was may more than I intended to say. But I have a Greek midterm today and it's Spring Visit this weekend, so it makes perfect sense that I am finding time to type a blog. Must work......
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